This channel. Is my way of destress ing. I am cautious about diaper rash the every first day Sophie was born. Yesterday. Officially Sophie has got diaper rash. I cant describe how stressed I am at this moment.
It brings back memories of my mum. Her very last days and battling cancer as much as diaper rash.
As I was airing Sophie today. I almost break down.
小肥肥。Get well soon.
We went for the 4mth immunization jabs as well as development evaluation. The latter, is probably another trick of the PEDS to upsell. Oh well, I am sure all parents paid though..
Evaluation wise, Sophie's growth is considered advanced for her age. And as we left, the doctor says "very good, she's growing really well.. " That night, I rewarded myself with a 60mins foot massage;)
All these while, I am worried that I might not be able to give Sophie the best care, simply put, I have zero interactions with babies. I nv carried one before Sophie. And, I wasn't the type that has maternal instincts 2。Hence, I am relieved, that Sophie is in good shape. And of course, Yellow been a great help.
Yesterday a thought went through me.. Sophie 的命真好！She might not be born into a well off family, but both papa and mama and others, love her. We are not only providing her materialistic luxuries but also time and love. The latter, is much more important.
Lastly. Pic. Doc says, Sophie is 90% for weight and 95% for height. She is as fat as she is tall. Hence, pardon the severe double chin. It's ok, babies are meant to be chubby.
The ability to think deeply, is all part of the human equation. I luv, LOVE, love this little human of mine deeply.
Love you as high as a mountain would be.
Babbling at every occassion. Playtime and even breastfeeding !
I love reading stories to you, baby. Be a strong girl. Happy too!
Am a happy mama, happy wife. Happy maid.
One of the days this week. Sophie soiled her mattress. Our mattress. Difficult to settle at night time and was fussy at feeding. Somehow, I was alright with it and crusied through. Love to think I am stronger.
This afternoon, within 2 feedings. Yellow changed 3+3+1 diapers. I love the diaper changing man.
Pic. Sophie. Scream and starry night. How much better can it gets~
I suspect my heart might burst! Just like my boos overnight from 7pm to 630am!
So.. Today I discovered. Watching a sleeping you. Can be so interesting !
Anyway pic. Fav toy is my world or passport to see the world? Tough decision
A piece of good news. At last. The blue BFF is mine. The part about buying for Sophie. Is nothing but an excuse.
Part II. Sometimes I wished it's not weekend!
Waking up at 9am to bath Sophie. A slop job. One which I have to wake him up thrice for. Is it worth it? Fell back to sleep till 3pm when it's time for stroll. When asked if you wanna carry Sophie. 如果你不要，我背咯。我没有想背啦。I have no wish to continue the conversation as though Sophie is a liability. Buckle up and let's go!
I wish its wasn't weekend.. if all you have taken. Is the space on the already so cramped double bed. Deprived me of breastfeeding space, and Sophie for playtime and tummy space.
Period. Good night.
This plc. Is the best for that purpose. You dont get to channel all these negative energy to others. Yet it serve to detox myself. So today. The story goes...
First thing first. One thing I hate about the man. Is. He will bluntly says. Who and who is stupid. I find this sentence disgusting. Having said that, he said Sophie is stupid the other day. Which I am only tad disturbed. After all, Sophie is half yours. Branching from that, the man ought to be a smart guy... , He asked me after shower. Is feeding right?! Wrong!! it is nap time. Dont you know the drill?? We done it zillion of times. How smart are you ?
Continuation of how smart are you. So! For showering. Step 1. Is to clean the tongue and gums. You wouldn't have done it differently, because if not;
Your hands would be dirty from the diaper change. Or after shower, Sophie is naked, it's bad timing for wipe then. Is it you are not as smart as you think you are. Or you just cant be bothered...
Then. We did diaper change at 330pm. Went for a stroll. When we are back home, it's time for wipe down and prep Sophie for night time. He didnt wipe her butt during wipe down. And needless to say. He didn't change her diaper. Really?! This is what you do for an overnight prep? The next time Sophie wakes up is probably 9 hours later.. Sophie; if ever you are reading this. I know, you will change papa adult diaper diligently. Becuase I am confident I would have brought you up well in that aspect. To the man; really?! How lazy are you??!
And this is not the first incident for diaper change. Once, Sophie pooped during 7pm feed. He said it's a fart. Confirmed dont have to change. I insisted on checking. And guess was it fart? Really. It's a 9hours stretch. Would you hope someone have checked. If it's your diaper ?!
If I can have a block it all veil over Sophie. I would have scream at the top of my lungs. And give him a tight slap. No kidding I will do exactly that.
Detox. Is great. Time for dinner. An espsoide of greys. Then sleep it all away...
Tomorrow is a beautiful day. Brand new. No judgment !
Pic. Walking Sophie to sleep. Victoria Park.
Being mother, I guess it meant. Sleep is not a crucial part of your life. Also. Your pain threshold is increased significantly. Is it the same for fatherhood ? I doubt so. And perhaps, it might have a negative relationship.
Today the man says;
His back is aching from bathing and changing diaper. I am not so sure to put a S to pluralize them or not.
He is falling sick. Not enough sleep. I wonder if he does 7 feeds a day. Or e insufficiency is from drama watching.
Anyway. I cant help to roll my eyes and throw a sarcastic answer" oh ya? I didnt know Singapore commandos are so weak...
Really. If you ask me this moment. We are stopping at 1.
Pic. Sophie trying to ROLL over. Got stuck. Go figure out Sophie~ that's e fun part.
Its 1020pm now. I found myself watching Sophie's video repeatedly. Can't help but to miss her.
Strangely enough. I love the small things I do daily. Playing with her, breastfeeding her. Simply holding her hands, kissing and talking to her, watching her smile. Is an enjoyment to me. Priceless ;) Shall keep reminding myself to cherish these moments.
Dont get carried away and frustrated by some feeding sessions; when she wasn't feeding well or puking. I get irritated. Have to remind myself to stop feeling this way and/or acting out.
These 2 weeks. We are hearing her giggles. You are a joy to Mummy, Sophie. Perfect and mummy won't want to change a thing of you(not even your double chin).
Love you to the moon and back.
I am officially the first in my family to own a car(pram). Ideally, it means happy family going out for stroll, meals and shopping.
But far from that. I cried and cried uncontrollably when I am in it. Unsure about why that happened. I guessed they won't be putting me in pram for awhile.
Sophie love papa. Sophie love mama.
Something that I am lacking. And I can never provide. Papa's love.
Hopefully Sophie will grow up bagging lots of those loves. So far looking good.
Papa loves Sophie. Sophie loves Papa.
I strongly believed this calls for a post.
Sophie slept from 733pm to 730am. No feeds in between. A well rested mummy, beaming her smile at her this morning.
Sophie must be thinking. This woman. Why she kept praising me. Why is she so proud of me. Am I really that great? Am I that awesome?
Sophie. You have no idea~Mummy is a light sleeper and takes a long time to fall asleep. In this 3mths, close to a zillion times, after a night feed, I have a orchestra snoring husband on my right, a well fed baby on my left falling asleep. And there, I was. Trying for another twenty minutes before I fall asleep.
Guessed what. Before I realized. Its next feed again.
So, Sophie. Thanks for your greatness last night. I know it's not a constant. But Mummy happy enough today.
Love you to the moon and back~
Eventually. Or planning to.
I will return to work. Beef up my bank account. Equally important be a good example for S. Dont be a lazy bum like your mum Haha.
I have observed how Yellow interact with S. Playing with you yet playing games on the phone. This is not what I want. And I believe it's not what S wants?
So. I pledge. I will give S undivided attention when I play with her. Not watapp on phone or reading magazines whatsoever.
Quality over quantity eventually when I am back at work. For now, S will have both quantity and quality ;)
Apparently. Bb are incapable of linking their sleep cycles(30 45mins each). So, LEARN!
At first, I tried crying it out method. Letting S cry for 15 20 mins before resettling her. I am telling you, it's as tough a process for her as well as me. Seeing her cry, makes me unwell. I feel like puking on several occasions.
Then, I read about ferber method; progressive watching. Letting bb cry for 5 mins, go in pat for 2mins. Repeat till she's asleep. Next day, 7mins so on.. This works well for S. After first 2 rounds, I come in pat n go. She knows theres no hope, she starts to depend on herself. Self settle and sleep.
Teaches me;
Kept exploring methods till u find something that suits you
Dont give up half way, I.e after the first method. Then, S cried for nothing. All wasted.
Always let her be independent. Yet have a sssshhh safety net for her ;)
Lastly. I love her. More than I know.
Tgif. Muackz
Last Sunday. Was what I described as thankful day. Hoping to say thank you to the people who help/love me in these 2 mths.
One of whom, is Nurse Noel. Someone who taught me tricks on breastfeeding and went the extra mile to help with my vicious letdown. Chocolate n cards that it~
N then M n PQ. Flowers and food. Comforting and making the hungry mom happy. Pic, strawberry pork ribs at Pangs. I love love it max. Hahaa
Kinda of perfect in my sense. Sophie in bed, Yellow in gym. I finished my SOGO takeaway dinner. Waiting for laundry, lighted diyptye candles.
ME time. I never had for a long time.
Eventually if I am to work. Able to have work life balance in life. Life will be perfect then ;)
It's crazy horse day. Any of the following/combination could happen.
Soiled PJ
Soiled Rocker
Pee on mama while bathing
Cuddle me away all day
Peaceful lunch fat hope
Crying baby to be fed; I am all sweaty
Sweaty to the max. Messy hair. Hunger. Mummy hands; ever so sore and painful.
But one of her glance at you. A smile. Would take the sorrows away.
At solid 6.6kg. Usually it takes 3mths to double your birth weight. But milk junkie took 2.
85pct sweet. 10pct bittersweet. 5pct bitter. For a first time mum, I believed that considered good experience.
Above. Us. In Petite Bateau.
Its been 2mths. With limited sleep. Still going strong, despite no caffeine. Its amazing journey. No regrets and perhaps wish I started earlier.
Love you 2. To the moon and back.
Quick coffee run to starbuck reserves and back. Her first and hopefully soon enough. She be at face out at baby carrier. Meaning to say 3mth plus minus.
Started on rountine project couple days back. Its good for Sophie. Making sure shes clocked sufficient hours of sleep. Equally important, make sure we have life and predictability of our schedules.
So far so good. Love baby unicorn to the moon and back ;)
Sometimes, I forget that Sop is just 35 days old. Especially when she bitten me hard on her shrine(my nipples).
Now I am more settled in. Chill out mum, maybe not, but definitely now, my love for you. Is unconditional. I hope it stays this way and I dont allow expectations to build up.
Kiss kiss, my princess. Pic today after prep for night sleep.
Above. As Debbie described. Mini hug. It happened today as I was breastfeeding her.
She had 5 hours stretch on her night feeds. Brilliant Sop!
2 weeks old Mummy, I am. Not perfect( will never be, I guess), but step by step. I aim to improve and be better in my role.
Love you, Sophie. Love you, Yellow.
Went into active labour at 7ish and done by 8ish. By noon, I was up and running around the hospital.
Settling down at home. Meet Baby Sophie, 白靖莹。 Kept reminding myself. Be a chill out parent. We are now 2+1. A family. I love my family.
As if my tummy doesnt constantly reminds me of her pending arrival. The baby cot given me the confirmation. Cot arrived on Sat. Makes me excited in seeing her. 30 days or so to go.
Sleep. No quality hence I go for quantity. My appetite been huge. Just not sure if I am eating healthily. Home made Niang Dou Fu. NDF. Makes me miss Singapore. ...
Did a little celebration in my own terms.
Earlier on, I was napping in e bedroom alone and I missed Yellow horribly. Went on to e living and gave him a hug
Omg.
Is this the wonder week? I feel that bb is on growth spurt. I can literally sense her growing in sizes.
Sleep is becoming a rrreal problem. Pic. Is kinda of like my sleeping throne. 52 days to go !
Our first purchases of baby stuffs. Apart from the essentials, I love the baby clothes that we gotten. Mainly off white, which we love. The hand embroidery, I am a covert fan of this NZ brand Dimples ;)
Finally, milkshake nv fails me. Started to get a little emo, I blame it on hormones changesss ~~
Been sick since I am back frm Danang. Congee. Is my BFF.
Still. A happy pregnant woman.
Tt found and sent me a pic. My reply was 你有你要的幸福了! I love e cuteness and also seriousness of Baby QY. Haa.
I am reaching my happyness too. Love life, pple!
We spend the night at Cirque De Sol. Wasnt the most fantastic one I have seen. But, for a local weekend night, its decent.
So Yellow says. 你要当妈妈了！I answered. 是啊哈。Muackz!
Start of third trimester. 83 days to go. Time flies. I cant wait to hi five with you, baby.
Always planned for BM to be a big one. Hungary France etc. But it turned out, to be just 90mins flight away from HK. Haha. Part laziness. Part physical. Thinking about all the planning doesnt excite me. Physically too, wasnt sure I am up for long haul.
Luckily for us. The trip turned out so well. Resort definitely makes it to among top of my list. The Bahn Mi, Cau Lau n Pho. Yummy to the max. Feeling happy and ready for third trimester; all the prep works like purchasing needs to start soon.
Birthday 2018. 36 years of age. Probably not wiser than last year. I guess the curve plateaued when you reached adulthood. But I wished to be more patient. Better control of EQ. Specially now the lass is coming ;)
5.8 kg heavier. A rather unnoticeable bump.
95days to go. Pic. St Francis. HK. Supabowl Acai.
I tidied the house, whereas Yellow washed e dishes. Then, we showered together :)
Lunch. Fish ball noodles(angel hair); Singapore styled. Lovin it!
Randomly. YJ called and we chatted for exactly 63mins. She recalled her NYC business trip, whereby her teammates were all rushing home to be with families. Although she extended(meaning fun), but she doesnt have someone to go home to. Waiting for her at home. I cried when I heard the last sentence. 真的。 。。
On positive note, her goal now. Is to look for happiness(companion). Key is. It needs to be happy. Not just any companion 阿猫阿狗 we concluded ;)
Her posting in BKK starts next Monday. Lets see how we link up. Is it with my baby. Or its introduction to her happy companion.
Good night !
Today marks Day 1 of 25th week. Yellow is on business trip. Thinking of his baby in me, get kinda of sweet ;)
Baby wise. Shes been kicking, specially when I am trying to sleep. Good job babe. Aiming to:
Eat healthy
Exercise regularly
Sleep early.
Anyway. Pic. Acai bowl. Been our weekly affair. YUM YUMZ.
It is a gem not to be missed. With the good weather in HK. A picnic at this park, would do justice. Wait till same season next year. I will bring her along. Enjoy the sunshine.
Was telling D. I am enjoying the attentiveness Yellow is showing me. Preparing milk for me every night. Enjoy while it lasts!
Talk is cheap.
Cheap. Cheaper cheapest.
Fucking pay up if you arent that cheap. Really. Wtf.
By chance. I was watching Youn's Kitchen Season 2. It was a korean reality show, featuring celebrities opening a causal korean restaurant in Spain. Needless to say, I got hooked. To e boys, e gal, and equally attracted to korean food. It been what I am having all week. Aha!
0.5kg gain per week. On target ;)
For the past few days, I have been clearing stuffs, throwing away;clothes, shoes, books, greeting cards,toys. Threw away probably 20 to 30 kg worth. More to come~
So, i found. 365. A book I shall utilize whens shes born. Note to self. Experiences from past diary writing, keep it consistent! Usu handwriting gets worse, entries shorten haha..
Lastly. I love you, mummy.
P.s I love your red luggage. So trendy!
Was 18 weeks and 6 days yesterday. For the first time, I feel e kick. To me, it feels like popcorn poping. Mild, but definitely there.
Above. Is the first thing dad bought for his daughter. We were in a bookshop browsing. He showed it to me, and quietly approached e cashier. Paid and packed into his bag. Verry cute.
We woke up feeling bored. So off we go to SZ. For his fav Heytea and noodles for me. These spontaneous short trips. Wouldnt be as manageable when she arrives. Enjoy!
Muackz. Love you to the moon. And back ;)
I am a happy person. Or at least I try to be.
Makes it easier to be happy. When you learnt to count your blessings. There is 1, from today.
We just rented out Metropole today. Took us 2 weeks to rent out. Satisfactory rent. Lease starts tomorrow.
Goodbye for now MET. Take good care.
This is an entry about friends around you. One day, I was asking YJ about contact of an electrician. Her ans: I decided to spring clean my contact list, deleted that..Now in total, she has 31 numbers saved. Her exact"really, these are the people I wanna stay in touch."
Bring me to my recent encounter. I dont want 2b specific. But in essence. One has got cheap actions, poor characters. And as we always say, action speaks louder than words. To start, the action is cheap. Comes along, words(all talk no action) does indeed makes it cheaper. Conclusion; STAY AWAY from ROTTEN apples and tree. A pity. Makes me sad. But I do hate rotten. Really, cheap rotten apples, you actually lost alot by having these cheap actions. ALOT. Pity.
More importantly, on a positive note;) Makes your FRIENDS CLOSER pple.
Indeed. I am feeling kind of bored recently. I cant exercise (YET). And obviously I am not working too. Basically, eat, sleep and poop like a baby. EAT; also includes prenatal vitamins. Muackz 17 weeks 5 days now. 157 days to go baby;)
Wasnt a big affair for us this year. My aunties and cousin flew over on new year eve for couple days. Enjoyed their company and bgt back fond memories of our childhood. Ken and I will have Anderson Ice cream at Parkway, go for bus rides because he loves bus(guess what, he still loves his bus rides now haha). Simple but yet an affair we look forward to every wk/mth.
