Love this Singaporean so much that..

I suspect my heart might burst! Just like my boos overnight from 7pm to 630am!

So.. Today I discovered. Watching a sleeping you. Can be so interesting !

Anyway pic. Fav toy is my world or passport to see the world? Tough decision 

KAWS BFF N sometimes I wish it isn't weekend!

A piece of good news. At last. The blue BFF is mine. The part about buying for Sophie. Is nothing but an excuse.

Part II. Sometimes I wished it's not weekend!

Waking up at 9am to bath Sophie. A slop job. One which I have to wake him up thrice for. Is it worth it? Fell back to sleep till 3pm when it's time for stroll. When asked if you wanna carry Sophie. 如果你不要，我背咯。我没有想背啦。I have no wish to continue the conversation as though Sophie is a liability.  Buckle up and let's go!

I wish its wasn't weekend.. if all you have taken. Is the space on the already so cramped double bed. Deprived me of breastfeeding space, and Sophie for playtime and tummy space.

Period. Good night. 

Detoxification In Progress

This plc. Is the best for that purpose. You dont get to channel all these negative energy to others. Yet it serve to detox myself. So today. The story goes...

First thing first. One thing I hate about the man. Is. He will bluntly says. Who and who is stupid. I find this sentence disgusting. Having said that, he said Sophie is stupid the other day. Which I am only tad disturbed. After all, Sophie is half yours. Branching from that, the man ought to be a smart guy... , He asked me after shower. Is feeding right?! Wrong!! it is nap time. Dont you know the drill?? We done it zillion of times. How smart are you ?

Continuation of how smart are you. So! For showering.  Step 1. Is to clean the tongue and gums. You wouldn't have done it differently, because if not;
Your hands would be dirty from the diaper change. Or after shower, Sophie is naked, it's bad timing for wipe then. Is it you are not as smart as you think you are. Or you just cant be bothered...

Then. We did diaper change at 330pm. Went for a stroll. When we are back home, it's time for wipe down and prep Sophie for night time. He didnt wipe her butt during wipe down. And needless to say. He didn't change her diaper. Really?! This is what you do for an overnight prep? The next time Sophie wakes up is probably 9 hours later.. Sophie; if ever you are reading this. I know, you will change papa adult diaper diligently.  Becuase I am confident I would have brought you up well in that aspect. To the man; really?! How lazy are you??!

And this is not the first incident for diaper change. Once, Sophie pooped during 7pm feed. He said it's a fart. Confirmed dont have to change. I insisted on checking. And guess was it fart? Really. It's a 9hours stretch. Would you hope someone have checked. If it's your diaper ?!

If I can have a block it all veil over Sophie. I would have scream at the top of my lungs.  And give him a tight slap. No kidding I will do exactly that.

Detox. Is great. Time for dinner. An espsoide of greys. Then sleep it all away...

Tomorrow is a beautiful day. Brand new. No judgment !

Pic. Walking Sophie to sleep. Victoria Park.

Cant help but to ROLL your eyes

Being mother, I guess it meant. Sleep is not a crucial part of your life. Also. Your pain threshold is increased significantly. Is it the same for fatherhood ? I doubt so. And perhaps, it might have a negative relationship.

Today the man says;
His back is aching from bathing and changing diaper. I am not so sure to put a S to pluralize them or not.

He is falling sick. Not enough sleep. I wonder if he does 7 feeds a day. Or e insufficiency is from drama watching.

Anyway. I cant help to roll my eyes and throw a sarcastic answer" oh ya? I didnt know Singapore commandos are so weak...

Really. If you ask me this moment. We are stopping at 1.

Pic. Sophie trying to ROLL over. Got stuck. Go figure out Sophie~ that's e fun part.

You are my Sophie Bear~

Its 1020pm now. I found myself watching Sophie's video repeatedly. Can't help but to miss her.

Strangely enough. I love the small things I do daily. Playing with her, breastfeeding her. Simply holding her hands, kissing and talking to her, watching her smile. Is an enjoyment to me. Priceless ;) Shall keep reminding myself to cherish these moments.

Dont get carried away and frustrated by some feeding sessions; when she wasn't feeding well or puking. I get irritated. Have to remind myself to stop feeling this way and/or acting out.

These 2 weeks. We are hearing her giggles. You are a joy to Mummy, Sophie. Perfect and mummy won't want to change a thing of you(not even your double chin).

Love you to the moon and back.

First in my family!

I am officially the first in my family to own a car(pram). Ideally, it means happy family going out for stroll, meals and shopping.

But far from that. I cried and cried uncontrollably when I am in it. Unsure about why that happened. I guessed they won't be putting me in pram for awhile.

Sophie love papa. Sophie love mama.

Papa and me

Something that I am lacking. And I can never provide. Papa's love.

Hopefully Sophie will grow up bagging lots of those loves. So far looking good.

Papa loves Sophie. Sophie loves Papa.