A grey grey me....@ Fullerton
Friday started off well. SE and I patched? up. And as a result, I slept really well that night. (or maybe its because of the wine?) But I think its because of SE, rather than the wine. At the end of the day, Chris is still a simple girl, she might be strong and confident, but @ times, she will cry, she will be uncertain and need someone to assure her..Pamper her. SE thought she been on the recieving end and I am the provider. But she is wrong. I open myself up when I am with her, and most of the time, opening up makes me feel good enough. Also, during my most diffcult times, she been by my side. And cmon, at those times, it wasnt a matter of how well can you console me. Wounds need a long long time to heal(if it ever will) and what I need most then, was someone to keep me accompany, be my pillar in some sense and please dont keep mentioning it to me (which she did) Ha. Perhaps you argue that its her quiet nature. But... I doubt so.. I think that its because she understand me well.. She just need to be there, and never to rub on it.. In conclusion, SE is my pillar too.. And I sincerely hope that I could be hers as well.. :)
Saturday.. I met up with Din.. A mother to be.. Kaoz.. Little Jay is due next week and she asked me out to shop?? WTF?? To be honest, its one of my firstss time, accompanying a pregnant lady. I behaved like a bodyguard more than anyone else. So afraid that someone might bump into her. I carried her plastic bag as well. Those close to me should know, I hate carrying bag, especially plastic ones. But that afternoon, I am so willing to do it. Haha.. Anyway, I havnt been shopping with Din for years. We havnt been the closest pals for these few years. But.... I can feel that, after these few years, she is afterall still the Mushroom head that I know in BV, the transfered girl from Chestnut Secondary, on Cashew Nut drive. One of my best pals in school. Knowing that, puts a smile. Big fat one on my face. NOW, a new role on the way. MUMMY you are. Hope all go well... And.. The next shopping trip, am I carrying the diapper bag? OH NO!!!!
Night.. Met up with E and L. Hmmm.. How should I put it.. I felt that E is still mad? at me. Thinking of that, makes me sad.. Maybe it just need more time.. I wonder what can I do on my end? I guessed, there is nothing much? So guys, think before action. Some consequences just cant be salvange. I am such a LOSER>>>
Night.. Gals, are you faithful? Are you sure the guys will always be the same? Forever? I really hope she can learn how to love herself more. I will try too... To love her more...
I hope to sleep well tonight..
