CNY Home Alone

Despite her nonsense. I still love her to the max.This is when I understand. When someone say I love you for who you are. Actually they are not BS-ing. It is true. Happy CNY, Cami. Sorry for leaving you alone in SHA. 

Pull Your Ear!

Gong Xi Fai Cai! Absolutely didn't regret coming back for CNY. Although the air tickets can b cheaper!! Counting the coming 4 days of awesomeness that I have left. Muuakz. 

Yeah!!!

Weather is good, this is a great plus. And I am so happy to meet up with my friends. f2f definitely beat calls and wat. Double happiness! The day has come. Hahaha! 

Yuppie!

Yuppie! My first trip aboard. Singapore!!!!!! Here I come~

想念。。

Tonight is rather different..想念是甜蜜的。Waking up and seeing you. Is a luxury now. Love is craze

HK Yoghurt

Hmmm.. This is one good yoghurt. City Super HK.......

Whenever I miss home..

I will stand by this wall and remembering all the good things.. I didn't know memories can be so powerful, till recently... 

The Changes In Me

I can sense the changes in me. Conscious or unconscious, is a mix. I like them. Anyway, I don't want to elaborate. This post is for myself. Encourage myself-

Above: Who says it needs to be central or sheung wan station.. Aha! 

你的爱，我坚强.

身在他乡。你的爱，我坚强。爱的海洋。

我的世界.

住着一位铁汉。我的铁汉，他也柔情。It is not like we speak on the phone daily. But when we do, I usually have a good night sleep that night. Sometimes, it is not about the physical presence, but knowing that he is"there"(i don't know where..) makes me braver. Knowing that I am not alone in this world.

This Fri Awesome!

How fortunate am I to have home cooked lunch on a working Fri. And laters, pals are organizing a drink session for me. Titled: "none of your business". Was reminded that its weekend soon. It indeed a grrrrreat one! 

Arrived!

Just home and happy to see that parcel arrived. Until this becomes a tattoo on me. Heres the deposit to Yellow.

LOL

This is funnie

How to stay sane??????

21 Jan 2014

I am so pissed with myself tonight. So so so so so pissed. Life is such a bitch. 

Smile Today.

I was eager to find out if she gets it?? Did a run back to Putman. Haha. She is gold.. Anyway, lets be light hearted. Be carried away by the wind. Enjoy lunch! 

Be Thai.

Circumstances may be out of control. Also, I choose to do some foundation work and preparation. And manage myself for worst cases it might get ugly and dirty. Thoughts shape who we are, but we can change the way we think. Circumstances and consciousness have shaped who we are, but the way we respond to circumstances and the thoughts we choose to believe. Determines the outcome. Magical equation. 

Jiayou. Together. We need to be more thai day by day. Think simple. Love more. Forgive more. Always happy. Get ultimate high w/o alcohol. 

I miss you...

我這麼孤單難以預料

我想我是我會 慢慢瘋掉

Sudden Thot

About traveling. Certain that I will miss it when I get done with. But come to think about it, you won't be annoy by those a**holes who open the flight window, and lights up the cabin. Especially when you are w/o sunblock. Or worse, those fellows who have 10,000 questions at custom check points. Just take out your lappy!! Nothing to be missed.

Above: Paris 2102

791 miles.

3pm today. 791 miles apart. Looking forward to a phone call

One Day. Alone *.*

That one day, I was alone with no itinerary. It did crossed my mind, to get air ticket on the spot and be gone to Shanghai. Not really sure of my decision making process. But in the end, I ordered the red dot nano and took a bus ride to nowhere.

I always like taking bus. People watching and it is a good way to comb a city. Esp double decker. View is great. Above is one of my favourite photo in awhile. Hasn't got a good timing to post it. Its a view that you never been able to capture, if you aint on double deck *.*

Visited one of the wet market. And got these. Pants I needed for Putman. HK is getting cold. Its only 20 HKD. Suits my theme for the year: Back to basic. Don't be brand conscious. Turned out, the cutting is little weird. Is it for kids? Regardless- fits the bill. 

Ended my day with Maks. What I would call, the dessert bowl wonton noodles. I am starting to love Maks. Because, it is clean. As Yellow pointed out, he thinks I like it, because it is relatively quiet and peaceful. Unlike typical wanton chain. I think he is not wrong.. Countdown to CNY. Countdown to SIN> > 

Thanks!

I hope you enjoyed HK. Despite all the whoahhhhh! And thanks for e surprise. These chocos are among my fav.

Above. From Valentino Singapore

Borrowed Tees

Exactly 1 week ago. Living in Thailand on borrowed tees. Love them all. Choose life, you are next. 

My human conversation as long as my blog entry

LY says: "How come your blog entry is getting longer and longer..Is it that your actual human conversations are shorter and fewer. To prove that he is not right. This post is necessary.

Was into budgeting now. It is part of my evaluation process as well as to recoup some. The last time I did budget, was maybe 5-6years back. Or even longer. Last remember, was Moo asking me to jot out my daily spendings. Which is useful, I must say. It became clear that TAXI is the kiiler. Earlier than that, has to be 18? It is interesting how excel was set up, budgeting for starting a family. To be honest, Yellow and I never did that. His estimation ideology works well in our life. But now, I have a different aim. I need to reduce expenses. Not to the extend of having a tough life, but to be structured, stick to it.

Part of budget reveal;
Annual Travel 10K(1K BV)
Yellow Love Language Gift 1K
Friends Love Language Gift 1K
My Electronic Love 1K (Decided on iPad 480)
PQ asked me to go TKY in Feb. My questions of "How much" on hotel,air tickets,food "impressed" her. I can tell she is full of admiration for my determination.. Hahhaa.

Happy Fri. I just bought strips, 90HKD.  I love the big smile on the guard's face, when he saw strips  in my arms. It is true, gals of all ages(yes i am 32 this year) still like our soft toys. But, the way we view them, might have change slightly..
Me: I love Patrick man.. Cutez
Cat: Ya lo, don't you think he look like pen***
Me: ya hor yaa hor..
Cat stroking Patrick...

These days, I been speaking more to sugar daddy. He said: he finds me stubborn. Kept insisting and drilling down, when theres tell tales that it is not going to.. Now, I find that it makes sense. I have no problem bending rules at work. Finds the stubborness in me, stinky. Also black and white. Something shld be left in grey zone. I shouldn't have...

Well, counting down to the days. L is officially back HK next week. I am seeing so little of her since relocation. Misses our nothing but dearest. Its not about where. Times just seems to files and how we encourage one another works!. PQ as well. Theres this green dutti jacket that we both have. It a little task to check if the other wearing, when initiating a meeting. Soon, she has no such worry. I am already missing her. Anyway, back to do list:
Ton at her new house - chalet style, cook bf and run(I will do the husky job)
Little Bao
Walk back from work to Known

Anyway, I am missing Yellow.Not Cami anymore, why? Missing Singapore CMC, missing friends in Singapore. Counting the days.

16 Jan 2014

This space is becoming my diary. Lengthy. I think all alone in HK makes it so. In Shanghai, Yellow and Cami are readily available, although Cami is my preferred choice. We pretty much talk about everything, career, love, sex, friend money...

This morning, when I am showering. I suddenly got emo. Crying in my bathtub. Yellow's my sweetheart works. My love, my sweetheart, apple, red apple(no,! no orange yet!) I think Yellow's vocabulary is depleting as days went by. Haha. Anyway, the BFF hug hug works as well..

30mins later, grabbing breakfast with J. I was all bubbly and cracking the best jokes of the day. I think this is ME. Comes and go easily. Cold blooded. Hurt but I have excellent recovery plan. The above reminded myself not everyone is like me. And, I am extremly capable of hurting people with my harsh tone. Tone down...Only BFF is bullet proof, I think he is too full of himself, that why..

While I was running. Out of nowhere. I recall my conversation with B. 2000. Pretty much shattered when my mum passed away. He told me, do you know. Why people cry at funeral. They are crying for their loss. Its all about themselves. They lost something,someone. You should be happy that the sufferings have ended. And they are in a nicer place. At 18, I buy that. This moment, I still do. Anyway, random thought..  

Nope, I am not emo now.Chatty. Thanks for loving me as who I am. I love you too. Time for dinner. Bibibib..

Shit.Detox.Poo.Mess.

Sometimes, shit flows down(@ work) or get accumulated in our bodies. When you detox, all the shitty shit comme out. This is how my BFF puts it. We are talking about the real deal. A lot of poo. Nice and smooth shit.

Some of my bads. I shouldn't always let shit flow down. Not getting hands dirty is one thing. But, it doesn't cheer the crowd. Abish. Also. My own detox, I didn't manage well. Messy. Right the wrong.

Lets keep our toilet clean.

Weird Call

On my way back. My dad called. Was pretty (very) unusual. Asked me hows HK for me. How everything. How weather. Then came his keynote, food in HK is good, but don't eat so much. You are coming back to SIN soon. Wau lau eh.

Anyway, reaching the end of our conversation. Deep down. I wanted to say I love you. But somehow, I didn't know how to say it. I ended with bye bye and sleep early(a subsitutte phrase that I blurred out) . And it was 740 when we got off the phone..Loser.

I wanna have fish head curry when I am back! 1599 miles away. Wait for me, don't go for curry this Sun leh..

Yup, with love. 

A long long post about myself....

This morning. I saw a message from watapp. " I got the role". Rubbed my eyes and immediately reached out for the phone to call PQ. I am really happy. Even though it been firmed for last weeks, I was afraid of hipccups. This have to be the happiest thing that happened to me in Jan. I believed it will stay for the next weeks as well. Anyway as I told her, get your sunglasses ready.. 前途无量!

Was telling Pet. As I grow older, there is a deviation in my happiness. It used to be, my source of happiness centered around myself. Be it from splurging or travel trips. Now, usually I am happier because my family or loved ones are happy. The source is no longer self centre. I like that change in me. I hope for my life to be simpler than before. It should be subtract, not addition or multiply.

BKK trip. Has got good and bad. I think the cat is quite hyper, because finally she has someone who speaks and understand chinese. I am smiling most of fri/sat as well. Bitching is detoxing. Allwomen conversation, surprised me. I always thought we knew all of each others' secrets.. Anyway, she is wise, patient and sensitive. My baby steps to learn. Wink wink.

Regrets, Worries. And Doubts. Thanks to whoever, I am easily distracted as far as these are concerned. The spilled milk and tears are soon drying up. Worries wise, I am never a worrier. So it is anytime, before it is gone. Doubts; after some thought through, I think you are not right. But weird though, conversation between us is close to non existent now.

Book: The first 90 days. Good application to workplace. 3 top agendas. What is urgent but not important. How you should cover all bases and complete them 75%(to save time, last 25% is usu hardest). Mingle with new peers. Have quick wins. Celebrate small success. Find the last 2 particularly useful. Because the book focused a lot of hard facts, to me, what needs strategizing most. Is mind. Right tuning and attitude are important. It is okay to have doubts, who doesn't. Especially when we are tired. Have to learn to laugh ourselves off. Convince yourself it is right choice. Because you and me, know it is right choice!!

Lastly. For a laugh. Last night, when I arrived at HK airport. My luggage didn't go home with me. Because I forgot to collect it from the belt. Went straight to Aiprort Express. Only realized it 24 mins after. Round of applause.

Wish all. Tomorrow will be a beautiful day. While McDreamy saves some life, lets save our own arse. Love love.

I am so smart. 

BKK Escape

Counting down to your wedding in June :)

Last Night

Running keeps 3 things away. Regrets. Doubts. Regrets on e loss. Doubts about friendship.

Haha

Kimi & Ange

爸爸去哪儿

While Yellow is in town, we spend some of the nights catching up with 爸爸去哪儿. Its reality show about throwing Kid and Dad(w/o the Mum) into foreign locations, seeing how they bond. The nicest thing is to see how the kids trust people and view things. They lived in a beautiful world. And it reminds me of my childhood. Yellow commented that Ange bears a striking resemblance to me. Actually, it is true, and not only in terms of appearance, but characters too. 

Similarities included. Some behavior attitudes we have in group setting. Our devotion to food. I.e in the show, the Dads need to take part in competitions. At most of these competitions, Ange seems to be living in her own world, not bothered. But theres once, dinner ingrediants are at stake, she told her dad "爸爸, 你一定要赢!"Haha it was cute.. Also, both of us need to concentrate when we are eating. Like, what I hate; is to eat while walking. Anyway, go watch the show.. Great way to burn a couple of hours away. 

Wanted to search for some photos, but most of them are in SIN. Above, taken with LJ. 

A city that I am fond of.

A city where I find charming. One that you can find big brands. Shopping mall like Siam Centre. When you stepped out, you can be eating some noodles at a roadside stall. A city that you can be totally at ease. It is also the place, where I found my fav best t-shirt. BKK.

This weekend. I have only 2 requirements. 1 Massage and 1 good meal with Tom Yam Soup. I will be a happy gal. I need to distract myself; with the money I am parting with. A place to lick my wounds.

Haiz. Lucky 2014.

Expectation

Please don't have expectation on me. I can't/dont wish to deliver them. Same time, I will have zero (or close to) expectation. Or at least, I won't be mad if you fall short. This is best. I don't like that you are trying to have a strong influence on me. Forcing down my throat. 

Above: Taken on my roam alone, Sheung Wan. 

The Fish Tank

Sher was in my hood and drove pass my place. Haha, many thanks for keeping an eye! She said they had friends over and having some fun. Full glass panels, good and bad. This is why our neighbors named our place: The Fish Tank.

Still love the interior a lot. I guessed, this place is for keeping. Living, maybe not. Lets hope NOT! 

Wayyyy Cool

What a late entry. There is no prefect lover in this world. We all have flaws, weakness and different characters. I learnt, through my own experiences and more from others'. Key is to first overcome, accept. Next improve and mature together. This is wayyyy cooler.

Btw, I saw a husky sneezing on my way home. Soooo cute. Bring a big smile to my face. Counting my blessings. 

豪宅 In The Making..

PQ's new place in the making.. That day, we combed Horizon Plaza and CWB for furnitures and deco items. Now, I know what PQ likes. A bit retro, a bit chic, a bit industrial. Am I right?

Haa caught Boss in action @ Franc Franc. He sneak out from BKK because Cat was out. Rendez with secretary in HK. I warned him to be back by 2nd Jan. Love him to Max. Did wanna kidnap him home.

Above is my fav piece of the night. Spotted at homeless. Nothing great about the material and it is not even LED. But, I love the concept. Being a fish, out of the water. That what we wish happens to us, sometimes, one day, isn't?

Looking forward to seeing the new place. No doubt, PQ will make it awesome. Sorry that I need to run. Should have told me earlier, I will take a day off to help out. Happy painting!  

Christmas Leftover

Putman's lift. 815pm today. Night night

心疼你。但。。Pretty helpless.

BEN

I never like the idea of 100 places you need to go. Before you die. But this is 1 place, I wanted to go in 2014. Benesse House, Naoshima. Night night. 

Transit 2013-14

Didn't really got the chance to sit down for resolution. Don't ask me what am I busy with. I have no idea too. Anyway, don't think resolution works well on me. Never get things done. As R puts it, I am the lucky gal, didn't have to do much planning. I actually don't like that comment. Aha!

Resolution. No. But I want to recap my 13. As below:
*number of kgs shed -1
*number of cat I have 1
*number of husband I have 1(happy)
*number of kisses from les 2
*liquid +1 digit
*luv that I gave >1
*love that I rec infinity
*number of times I pissed Dad off zillion

For 2014, going to go for zero resolution. Just to keep the pact that I have with Pig&Cat. Also, 1 day vegetarian weekly. More about that laters.

Bad Communicator 2.0

Wasn't news that I am one. But I was told off by 2 different friends; that I got to improve. Case 1. Was planning baddy with P. She told me to get shuttles(in a nice way, of course). My ans was no, I don't think so. Ending with then lets cancel. Biz ttyl. Is this harsh? 

Case 2. Was chatting with C about going Chiang Mai together. She said good that we can share room and save on accomd. My ans was don't want. We are not that close. Which is true, no? She didn't utter a word for whole afternoon. Glad that both P and C feed backed to me. Point taken, gals.  

Funny thing is. When I told Yellow about it, his ans is: ok what, nothing wrong with the way I put it. Interesting interesting..

Anyway, thanks God I still have friends. And thanks you for being my friend. 

:)

I love mine spicy, pls.

Whenever someone meeting me near my hood. They will usually leave the dining decisions to me. 9 out of 10, I will say: "I usually go to this Laska place, but its not nice at all. Do you want to try?" Don't doubt, above is my exact line. Then the other party will take charge.

Today, I met up with L for lunch. Said the same thing. Not knowing me well, trusting that I am Singaporean. We actually went in. Of course, he wasn't impressed. On our way out, he asked how frequent do I dine here. Stats shown about once to twice a week. I explained that I have craving for spicy food. He nodded, without saying much. Haha.

We explored some part of Sheung Wan before heading for grocery shopping. I realized, I have got to do grocery alone. I will make better decision. Above, spicy and unhealthy. Heading to gym! Jiayou jiayou! 

Morning.

Luv. Yardbird

What I do

When I misss someone. Night night. 

Smile, a little more~

Bought this from POHO today. Enjoy coming Sunday. Muuakz. 

鸿门宴

As I gathered. That's what Dad planned for me. If you don't get it, its like a 25K apple. Think of something nice... My 1 mth old banquet. 宴. Makes me feel, should just bite the bullet? Side track, mum is so gentle with me..

Fuel UP !

My fav in HK. Easily available in my hood. IFC and Landmark. Nowadays, its my BF together with their wholemeal tuna sandwich. This sometimes, is the best thing that happened in my day.

See you at Fuel tomorrow. 

Over dependent

Today's lunch was awesome. I hope everyday is like today, I hope everyday not like today. It was good to have good company and food. But I really ate ALOT. Bad for the waistline. But I just cant say no to CARBOS. LY's talk. Never to be over dependent on certain people, certain medicine. Why am I not agreeing? Not that I didn't experience that disappointment before. But still, I choose/I love to be depended on, to depend on others. Anyway. Marks the end of first work day in 2014.

Above: Fruit salad from Pacific Place EAT. The yoghurt is soo nice!  

Sweet 18

How we been both trying to avoid this meet up. Okay, its me. Thomas simply put, "been a long time ago and after all, still friends la." Its fate, I guess. If I am not unwell, I won't have slept early. Wouldn't be up at 3am, wouldn't have taken the call.  Quickly changed, took a deep long breath. Squeeze a smile at Putman's entrance, I am very nervous and it is not even hard to tell. Nothing like the drama, no fighting of demon needed. Started with how are you and a uneasy 30secs conversation. Before he said; how can he forget and extended his arms. During our supper, here and there, I am getting flashback from our days. I wonder if he is as well.. He said, these days, it is difficult to be understood. And likes that he don't have to say much and I get it. My exact ans: when we were 18, yes. not anymore a year later...We lived in different cities for the past 12 years, going through different stages of lives.. But somehow, I don't feel the gap, in our conversation.

I know you be reading this. Thanks for being with my during my darkest moments. I still remember that night, when you drove me back. Though I refuse to admit, I really would have... Anyway, remember to claim your prize with Thomas, What is it, btw? I am still as unpredictable as I am 18, right?

Lastly, I have a great end to 2013. Wish all a great start 2014. Happy new year.