This channel. Is my way of destress ing. I am cautious about diaper rash the every first day Sophie was born. Yesterday. Officially Sophie has got diaper rash. I cant describe how stressed I am at this moment.
It brings back memories of my mum. Her very last days and battling cancer as much as diaper rash.
As I was airing Sophie today. I almost break down.
小肥肥。Get well soon.
We went for the 4mth immunization jabs as well as development evaluation. The latter, is probably another trick of the PEDS to upsell. Oh well, I am sure all parents paid though..
Evaluation wise, Sophie's growth is considered advanced for her age. And as we left, the doctor says "very good, she's growing really well.. " That night, I rewarded myself with a 60mins foot massage;)
All these while, I am worried that I might not be able to give Sophie the best care, simply put, I have zero interactions with babies. I nv carried one before Sophie. And, I wasn't the type that has maternal instincts 2。Hence, I am relieved, that Sophie is in good shape. And of course, Yellow been a great help.
Yesterday a thought went through me.. Sophie 的命真好！She might not be born into a well off family, but both papa and mama and others, love her. We are not only providing her materialistic luxuries but also time and love. The latter, is much more important.
Lastly. Pic. Doc says, Sophie is 90% for weight and 95% for height. She is as fat as she is tall. Hence, pardon the severe double chin. It's ok, babies are meant to be chubby.
The ability to think deeply, is all part of the human equation. I luv, LOVE, love this little human of mine deeply.
Love you as high as a mountain would be.
Babbling at every occassion. Playtime and even breastfeeding !
I love reading stories to you, baby. Be a strong girl. Happy too!
Am a happy mama, happy wife. Happy maid.
One of the days this week. Sophie soiled her mattress. Our mattress. Difficult to settle at night time and was fussy at feeding. Somehow, I was alright with it and crusied through. Love to think I am stronger.
This afternoon, within 2 feedings. Yellow changed 3+3+1 diapers. I love the diaper changing man.
Pic. Sophie. Scream and starry night. How much better can it gets~
I suspect my heart might burst! Just like my boos overnight from 7pm to 630am!
So.. Today I discovered. Watching a sleeping you. Can be so interesting !
Anyway pic. Fav toy is my world or passport to see the world? Tough decision
A piece of good news. At last. The blue BFF is mine. The part about buying for Sophie. Is nothing but an excuse.
Part II. Sometimes I wished it's not weekend!
Waking up at 9am to bath Sophie. A slop job. One which I have to wake him up thrice for. Is it worth it? Fell back to sleep till 3pm when it's time for stroll. When asked if you wanna carry Sophie. 如果你不要，我背咯。我没有想背啦。I have no wish to continue the conversation as though Sophie is a liability. Buckle up and let's go!
I wish its wasn't weekend.. if all you have taken. Is the space on the already so cramped double bed. Deprived me of breastfeeding space, and Sophie for playtime and tummy space.
Period. Good night.
This plc. Is the best for that purpose. You dont get to channel all these negative energy to others. Yet it serve to detox myself. So today. The story goes...
First thing first. One thing I hate about the man. Is. He will bluntly says. Who and who is stupid. I find this sentence disgusting. Having said that, he said Sophie is stupid the other day. Which I am only tad disturbed. After all, Sophie is half yours. Branching from that, the man ought to be a smart guy... , He asked me after shower. Is feeding right?! Wrong!! it is nap time. Dont you know the drill?? We done it zillion of times. How smart are you ?
Continuation of how smart are you. So! For showering. Step 1. Is to clean the tongue and gums. You wouldn't have done it differently, because if not;
Your hands would be dirty from the diaper change. Or after shower, Sophie is naked, it's bad timing for wipe then. Is it you are not as smart as you think you are. Or you just cant be bothered...
Then. We did diaper change at 330pm. Went for a stroll. When we are back home, it's time for wipe down and prep Sophie for night time. He didnt wipe her butt during wipe down. And needless to say. He didn't change her diaper. Really?! This is what you do for an overnight prep? The next time Sophie wakes up is probably 9 hours later.. Sophie; if ever you are reading this. I know, you will change papa adult diaper diligently. Becuase I am confident I would have brought you up well in that aspect. To the man; really?! How lazy are you??!
And this is not the first incident for diaper change. Once, Sophie pooped during 7pm feed. He said it's a fart. Confirmed dont have to change. I insisted on checking. And guess was it fart? Really. It's a 9hours stretch. Would you hope someone have checked. If it's your diaper ?!
If I can have a block it all veil over Sophie. I would have scream at the top of my lungs. And give him a tight slap. No kidding I will do exactly that.
Detox. Is great. Time for dinner. An espsoide of greys. Then sleep it all away...
Tomorrow is a beautiful day. Brand new. No judgment !
Pic. Walking Sophie to sleep. Victoria Park.
